Why am I so needy?
I read Philippians 4 today from the Message where Paul writing from prison says:
"I'm glad in God, far happier than you would ever guess...Actually, I dont' have a sense of needing anything personally. I've learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I'm just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I've found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am."
Paul, you amaze me! I for one am always in need, never satisfied. Everyday I need food, shelter, acceptance from peers. Somedays I even need a date or a boyfriend, and money is a constant need for an intern...I could go on. How I long to be able to live simply one day. I long to get over the insecurities and vanities and pride and selfishness that weigh on me everyday and cause me to believe that I am in need and unsatisfied. I long to trust God and believe Him when He tells me that He can provide for all of my needs. I desire to be content and happy in whatever my circumstance.
Paul is writing this passage in prison for goodness sakes! And this is way before they had tv's and indoor plumbing and all the other stuff they have in prisons now to make prisoners more comfortable. If Paul can learn to be content in whatever circumstance, with God's help I can too. I think it will take getting me out of this comfortable lifestyle I now lead. If I want something, I can get it. When I'm hungry I eat, when I need new clothes I go buy some. I am especially bad with books and music! If I want a book majority of the time I will buy it no question, cds too. I am spoiled. I have so many books and cds and movies, but i still want more. why? and clothes. i have clothes everywhere, but i still want more. i hate the fashion industry! why does one exist? why do clothes really matter? it really is quite silly when you think about it. it is so important for us to look good on the outside though...sorry getting off topic. Anyways it is a struggle, but this year i want to learn what it means to be content in whatever my circumstance and stop trying to fill my own needs with what the world tells me I am missing, but trust God and allow Him to satisfy my hunger and thirst.
"I'm glad in God, far happier than you would ever guess...Actually, I dont' have a sense of needing anything personally. I've learned by now to be quite content whatever my circumstances. I'm just as happy with little as with much, with much as with little. I've found the recipe for being happy whether full or hungry, hands full or hands empty. Whatever I have, wherever I am, I can make it through anything in the One who makes me who I am."
Paul, you amaze me! I for one am always in need, never satisfied. Everyday I need food, shelter, acceptance from peers. Somedays I even need a date or a boyfriend, and money is a constant need for an intern...I could go on. How I long to be able to live simply one day. I long to get over the insecurities and vanities and pride and selfishness that weigh on me everyday and cause me to believe that I am in need and unsatisfied. I long to trust God and believe Him when He tells me that He can provide for all of my needs. I desire to be content and happy in whatever my circumstance.
Paul is writing this passage in prison for goodness sakes! And this is way before they had tv's and indoor plumbing and all the other stuff they have in prisons now to make prisoners more comfortable. If Paul can learn to be content in whatever circumstance, with God's help I can too. I think it will take getting me out of this comfortable lifestyle I now lead. If I want something, I can get it. When I'm hungry I eat, when I need new clothes I go buy some. I am especially bad with books and music! If I want a book majority of the time I will buy it no question, cds too. I am spoiled. I have so many books and cds and movies, but i still want more. why? and clothes. i have clothes everywhere, but i still want more. i hate the fashion industry! why does one exist? why do clothes really matter? it really is quite silly when you think about it. it is so important for us to look good on the outside though...sorry getting off topic. Anyways it is a struggle, but this year i want to learn what it means to be content in whatever my circumstance and stop trying to fill my own needs with what the world tells me I am missing, but trust God and allow Him to satisfy my hunger and thirst.
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